I never get too personal with my blog, but I want to work some things out that are floating loosely in my mind and here is the best place to accomplish that. As the title states, sometimes I want to give up on music and all things creative. I feel like my support group shrinks daily and it is not as fun as it used to be. Granted, I am a self-proclaimed "loner" but it would be nice to feel the love. This is not geared to anyone or any situation in particular, just the way it is at the moment. I have forgotten why I do this in the first place to be honest... why am I seeking approval? I am supposed to be doing this for me and as a sidenote, it is wonderful if others enjoy it as well. Perhaps, I am gearing my style too much for artists to record? I do not know or understand why I feel this way. However, it is not all gloom and doom, I do have a remedy for these sour feelings.... time to get back to my "Dilla Grind", meaning I need to start creating more and for my personal enjoyment. Seems like people cared more for Dilla after he passed then while he was alive. Maybe I will never recieve that superstar love, but it is not about that, it is about the ART. And art is what I live for... art is what I do... art is who I am and who I will always be...
