Sometimes I just want to give up and quit....

I never get too personal with my blog, but I want to work some things out that are floating loosely in my mind and here is the best place to accomplish that.  As the title states, sometimes I want to give up on music and all things creative.  I feel like my support group shrinks daily and it is not as fun as it used to be.  Granted, I am a self-proclaimed "loner" but it would be nice to feel the love.  This is not geared to anyone or any situation in particular, just the way it is at the moment.  I have forgotten why I do this in the first place to be honest... why am I seeking approval?  I am supposed to be doing this for me and as a sidenote, it is wonderful if others enjoy it as well.  Perhaps, I am gearing my style too much for artists to record?  I do not know or understand why I feel this way.  However, it is not all gloom and doom, I do have a remedy for these sour feelings.... time to get back to my "Dilla Grind", meaning I need to start creating more and for my personal enjoyment.  Seems like people cared more for Dilla after he passed then while he was alive.  Maybe I will never recieve that superstar love, but it is not about that, it is about the ART.  And art is what I live for... art is what I do... art is who I am and who I will always be...